The Genius Woman and the Devil’s Bargain
Every clever woman's faustian bargain: independence for her soul
“Two souls, alas, are housed within my breast, and each will wrestle for the mastery there.”
— Johann Wolfgang von Goethe
The ego is an existential threat to the gifted woman, because the world directly and repeatedly rewards the things which diminish her beauty but feed her ego as she almost effortlessly navigates the bureaucratic, academic and corporate structures that promise her power and freedom in return for her soul.
Again and again, the faustian bargain is made - cultivate your mind at the expense of your soul, and riches and power can be yours.
She is a creature of deep beauty and divine soul caged and conditioned through aberrant praise, necessity, and the survival programming said necessity entails, behaving as if she were a performance-maximising robot rather than as one of God’s daughters. She and those around her define her chiefly by what she can do, how well she can do it and how quickly, as opposed to the measure of the profound depth of beauty her soul contains, but is rarely embodied enough to express.
She has not simply rejected seeing herself as mere ornamentation for the masculine by proving her utility (in spite of her intrinsic need to feel pretty), but truthfully, she has abnegated her soul by coming to relate to herself primarily through masculine performance structures.
Through prideful cowardice, she tries to outrun her feminine soul so she does not have to face herself, constructing ever denser ego identity scaffolding derived from what she can do, as opposed to embodying who she truly is. This is why she is forever proving herself through societally approved careerist credentialism that requires her to suppress and thus deny her true nature, rather than become herself through the pursuit and embodiment of her heart’s greatest desires.
The intelligent woman’s soul endures far greater assault from this world’s unholy forces as a byproduct of her vaster capacities, than does the average woman’s. Firstly: owing to her mind’s recursive tendency to perceive contradiction to the point she can rewrite herself through rigorously compelling and dissected, but ultimately untruthful and fear-based narrative reinterpretation. But chiefly, owing to how the world responds to her abilities by foisting on her praise, position and power, and the effect this has by endlessly incentivising, reinforcing and conditioning her unintegrated masculine ego (her animus) - rather than cultivating her spirit in a way that frees her to develop and commune with her richest inner beauty.
The entire structure of society is built around adapting, structuring and maximising her as a unit of economic return, as opposed to recognising her inherently divine nature, and making her the most beautiful version of herself in realising her potential for great thoughtfulness, deep compassion and a certain energetic radiance.
A woman’s femininity at its healthiest and most well nourished and contained is soothing and thus inherently healing. Healing is the true woman’s natural vocation, but it cannot be embodied when the healer is forced to be a fighter, for these are in terms of feminine self-identification ontologically mutually exclusive, for where a healer sees beauty (and thus creation) as the apex frame and mode of orientation for being, the fighter identifies that frame as survival. Both cannot co-exist, and thus such a paradox is not sustainable without fragmentation and so must necessarily collapse. She either becomes a primary healer or primary fighter, but she cannot be both.
This is not to say that a woman should be unable to fight or be ruthless in any way and aspire to harmlessness, because to do so would only undermine her capacity for greatness and individuation, only that fighting should not be her primary mode of being, a selectively employed capacity rather than a tendency, as it were - her shadow must be integrated.
This is why only the correct man is her salvation, as in, the initiator of her becoming in her reconnection with herself, so she can transcend to become the woman she was always meant to be. There is no woman alive who is at her most beautiful without a man to love her deeply and fully, and there is no shame in this, for it is God’s law - the natural and supposed order of things, that law being:
“Wives, submit yourselves to your own husbands as you do to the Lord. For the husband is the head of the wife as Christ is the head of the church, his body, of which he is the Savior. Now as the church submits to Christ, so also wives should submit to their husbands in everything. Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her to make her holy, cleansing her by the washing with water through the word.”
— Ephesians 5:22-26 - The Holy Bible (NIV)
Nonetheless because of all these aspects, it is much harder for the clever woman to breed than the unintelligent woman, and the statistics bear this out. The cleverer the woman, the less likely she is to have children. Genius women are less fertile than smart women, who’re less fertile than above average women, who’re less fertile than average women - you get the idea. This is not just because they’re more prone to corruption by the masculinisation of their intellects, the economic and ego reward attached to the performance of their capacities and the institutional and professional status that can confer, but likewise because they require more individuated depth (paradox tolerance, embodiment and spiritual capacity) to contain as a man.
The smarter the woman, the higher her respective difficulty level to effectively care for and govern. All women are chaotic because chaos is intrinsic to the feminine principle, but supercharge that with outlier intelligence, contradiction, paradox, nuance, omission, rumination, anxiety and all that feminine neuroticism entails - and you can see it is surely no walk in the park. For all her gifts and as great as she may be at her best, whichever way you cut it, it is greater stress and difficulty for a man relative to a less remarkable woman, which is why rather naturally, the pool of viable men for God’s greatest daughters is modest.
The clever woman in her feral, egoic Lilith state is not loveable, because seized by entropy she will in her self-destructive nature spiral ever deeper in her descent, unprotected from herself without paternally loving guardrails, she is destined to self-implode like a majestic supernova. It is for this reason she must for all her talents reach a level of individuation that allows her to be generative, cooperative and governable, for she truly only belongs with a man who has reached a level of individuation that makes him fit to govern. But she too must do the work to ensure she is able to appreciate his gifts and meet him there, rather than waste the opportunity for becoming, beauty and mutual co-creation he represents to her.
Smart men and women simply cannot functionally breed without going along a hero’s quest of sorts where they identify all the naturally occurring elements within them that undermines their desirability to and compatibility with the opposite sex, before stripping them out to integrate the sexual polarity into their being that comes naturally to their less intelligent counterparts, whilst integrating their shadows, and their respective animus’ (for women) and anima (for men).
This is why when a genius woman reproduces voluntarily and without coercion, it is something of a mega accomplishment because the deck was not stacked in her favour. She is not simply having a baby in the same way a regular woman has a baby, because she’s had to overcome far more spiritually to make this happen in a mindful and generative way, bypassing her mind’s rumination, pride, vanity, fear, cowardice, elaborate capacity for self-deception and all the unstable and irreconcilable contradiction that would lock her out of heaven. She has bypassed the imprisoning ego structures that she would incorrectly think of as freedom and independence, and instead pursued true freedom and individuation through the pursuit of beauty in union with her divine man.
A dumb woman cannot get a PhD in a respectable academic field, but she can breed easily, whereas a genius woman can blaze through the most rigorous of academic trials at a lightning pace, and yet all too often struggle to achieve motherhood. Such poetry there is then that almost all things come easily to her except motherhood, which for all its simplicity and inherent sanctity comes far more easily to women who possess not even a fraction of her capacity for wonder - a true cosmic irony of sorts, but nonetheless an additional test for the intelligent woman to bear (and to pass!).
An average woman and genius woman’s reproduction are thus clearly not equal accomplishments despite the superficially identical result, because one is much harder to do (and do meaningfully and sustainably) than the other.
And of course although less intelligent women breed easily, the quality of (and thus resulting capacities of and subsequent contributions to society) by their offspring are naturally lower, so it is in no conceivable sense equivalent to the genius woman’s act of conception (although all babies are precious in their own right), and yet evolution is indifferent and God gives you no more than you can handle. That which is selected for is what survives, because that which you are not fit to honour is taken from you.
As such, we must ensure the qualities we intuitively know to be divine and superior are getting selected for by showing our capacity to appreciate and sufficiently wield them, rather than convey to God and reality:
“Oh you know these superb magical gifts you bestowed me with, these great gifts that so few have that I and few like me possess? I cannot handle them! They make me insane and dysfunctional to the point I quite literally cannot find it within myself to be functionally beautiful and generative enough to create new life, and therefore you must naturally select against me, so that only those who do not have to endure the seemingly endless, vast, cascading complexity you experimented with when gifting such divine perception to me in the creation of me are permitted to remain.”
This is the wrong message to be telling God - that we must downgrade the capacity, capability and divinity of consciousness, because we are not ready for greater gifts, higher evolution, and species elevation by showing we deserve and can handle the great gifts he has already so generously bestowed. We must prove ourselves worthy of those gifts not merely by tinkering away, philosophising or slaving away to increase economic output, but by passing them on and thereby bestowing them to the next generation - for failure to do so is a waste of those gifts, a personal moral failing, a sin.
So to dysfunction and arrogance and the resulting inability to handle the vastness of one’s own mind and the contemptible ego that it can produce, we must say no. Idiocracy was both a warning and a prophecy if we do not reverse course. Reproduction, particularly for the intelligent, is a moral obligation. So rather than rebel against God which has become oh so tediously and unimpressively fashionable, let us instead rebel against entropy - let us be fruitful, and multiply!
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The more I read your writing, the more I wonder what experiences led you to think like this, would you ever consider writing an autobiography
I just got out of a relationship with a woman like this. And the problems are exactly like you lay them out here. Constant rumination, anxiety, a will to dominate. But despite those issues I would not have my relationships be with any other type of woman.